Topic # 39

The other night I was up writing really late and I kind of felt a wave of sadness sweep over me. I knew I should go to bed, but instead, I pulled out my old memory box. Bad idea… so many tears, happy and sad ones. So, tonight, I decided to pull out the same box and search a bit into its contents. 

I found a few letters from my oldest sister, Shelby. She would always send us notes even when she lived at home, she’d sneak them into the mailbox so we’d have a surprise when we picked up the mail that day. She always called me “baby girl” in them and she still does to this day, and it almost always brings tears to my eyes. She’s my big sister, but has always been more motherly to me than anyone.

I found an empty bath and body works hand sanitizer bottle. It was a gift from a boy I had the biggest crush on in highschool… he had the bluest eyes I’ve ever seen and 17 year old Morgan was in awe of this sweet country boy. Times have changed, and him and I are best friends now. I was actually sitting with him at school just this morning, like we do every Monday and Wednesday. I think keeping that little bottle reminds me of simpler times, when getting a bottle of hand sanitizer from a boy you liked could make you so happy.

I found a birthday card from my dad on my 19th birthday. This was when he and I never talked, never called, texted, nothing. He wrote a small note in the bottom corner that said “my phone works”… that one got me… I’ve always been a pretty sentimental and emotional person, but man, that just got me more than something usually would.

I found a gum wrapper with a scene drawn on the inside by my best friend Hannah. I remember she gave me a piece of gum when we were driving somewhere a few years ago and then decided to draw us in the car on the gum wrapper, I didn’t even realize I had it, but I’m glad I came across it tonight of all nights. I had been feeling a little sad about our friendship… but, finding that little wrapper tonight reminded me that we’ll always have each other, even when life gets busy and sad.